Last Blog of 2009

Let it be my 135th and the last post of the year 2009. 2009 the year was full of surprises yet lots of downs.

I've took the risk of tending in my resignation after CNY not even securing a job first. During that time, there was an worldwide economy crises and people were being laid off, and here I was quitting my job. I was desperate of taking any job to make ends meet. You could say, I ask for it, lol. Thought of setting up a education business but short of cash and afraid of failure.

The two months was hell to me. I sought Him and He answered me. Got a job and which I've changed to a better one after 2 months.

I ended my long distance relationship with my ex boyfriend which I thought I could carry for another year. I was struggling in this relationship because of the distance. Hoping it will work out but it did not.

"When a door close, another door will open. Not too soon, I met my current boyfriend and our relationship is 4 months.

I became an aunt to another niece and a sister-in-law to my brother's wife recently. I'm glad for additions to my family.

My skin have improved tremendously, I'm taking hormone pills to balanced my hormone. I don't have to get frustrated over any more acne breakout anymore.

H1N1 was on our shore this April and thought I was contracted it after having bout of flu and cough during that season. Whew, thank God, it was only an ordinary flu!

This year I met few new bloggers. They are Rose, Shakira and Rena. Thanks for the drop bys, your encouragement and comments.

Ps. Good riddance 2009! Welcome 2010!

Gifts of Heart...This Christmas

It's the season of giving and one of the best season of the year, it's Christmas time. Not for those who are giving though...got to fork out lots of cash to buy gifts.

People are buying gifts for their love ones, be it lavish or nominal ones. It's not how much a gift will cost but it's the thoughts that counts.

Sometimes, we don't need to give tangible gifts but what about gifts from the heart?

Are you holding a grudge towards someone? Forgive and forget this Christmas.

Any broken relationship to mend? Reconcile this Christmas.

Afraid of loving that person? Saying "I love you" this Christmas.

Any friends or families whom have not contacted? Stay in touch this Christmas.

Any one who are down and depressed? Listen and give words of encouragement this Christmas.

Ps. Have a blessed Christmas everyone!

What shall I do?

I've been working for my new company for the last six months and I've been accustomed to my new job. Nevertheless to say, there are mistakes that I made along the way.

My confirmation is due on the 21st Monday and I've got a feeling that my boss will not confirm me. He's not too happy with my performance. He reviewed me last 2 months and he told me I did not improve. And boy was I right!

He called me in and told me that he will extend my probation for another 2 months.

I thought of looking for another job but I'm still thinking about it. It's not easy to look for a new job as jobs are now scare and I'm in my 30s. Most companies do not want to employ old cow like me, lol.

Besides, my resume will not look good if I do not stay with my current company for a year or so.

If you want to read more about me changing jobs, please read all my posting under the label:Company.

Ps. What will you do if you were me?

Thank God, 2mrw is a holiday...

It all started with a scratchy throat on Monday, followed by a dry cough. Thought my throat was dried up due to the hot weather. Didn't bother about it.

Felt feverish on Tuesday but kept on working... On Wednesday, the fever still persists and the doctor gave me a MC. Took 6 panadols and slept but the fever did not subside.

My body felt so hot from the top to the bottom, had to take cold bath to subdue the hotness. Still felt feverish, I went to work the next day. Told my boss that I needed to take another day of MC. I finished up all the urgent work and took the half day off.

Went to see the same doctor. She took my temperature and she told me that was no fever. Damn the fucking thermometer! At the time, my fever could have subsided because of the panodol I took this morning.

But anyhow, she gave me another day of mc. And now I can rest more so that my body will fully recovered for my weekend activities.

Thank God, tomorrow is a holiday, I can rest more.

Ps. Please take more fluids and avoid hot fried food as this hot weather could be hazardous to your health! Take care.

Can have Sex at this age?!

When comes to marriage, age doesn't matter as a fact-ly in this century. One can get married at the age of 40 especially for women as long as she will be able have many sex with her husband.

That's what part of marriage is for, right? Have many sex with your spouse!

In Penang, Samuel Goh, 70 married his 2 years sweetheart, Sim Ang Choo, 64 on Dec 11,2009. This is the first marriage for both of them. They are the residence of Penang Silver Jubilee Old Folks Home.

I just wonder, can they consumerate on their wedding's night? If they do, I think they will be using lots of lubricant.

Eeewww, it's like your grandparents are having sex!

Ps. What do you think?

Hate...traffic jammmmm....

I shall never complained again with the traffic woes in Penang!

I get very frustrated and annoyed especially when I'm caught in the traffic jam. It can get worst for 20 mins before traffic is cleared.

When I was down in KL the last weekend for my brother's wedding, even though there was no jam, thank God it's a Sunday, the time travelled from one place to another took an hour plus. The last time I was in KL was 8 years ago.

Living in KL really slow down one's life quality. Waking up in the early dawn to get to work and leaving from work in the night time. Just to avoid the jam...

KL traffic will worsen during working and school hours. One can get caught in the jam for hours! I just don't know how KL-lites managed to live with all those stress and annoyances everyday, think by now it has became a way of life.

It takes only 15 to 20 mins for me to reach my workplace. And the distance between one place to another is less than 30 mins.

Ps. Where and when was the longest time you have been caught in a traffic jam?

My youngest brother's wedding...

I was down in KL for my youngest brother's wedding last Sat. Went and stayed at his new house in Bandar Utama. Lol, this is the first time that I seen his house.

My uncle and his family came to visit my brother before his D-day. Chatted with my uncle and my cousin which I've not seen them for a long time.

After they left, I went for a quick dinner at Secret Recipe. Most of the shops have been closed except Secret Recipe.

Helped my brother to packed last minute ang paus and went to bed at 2am. My mother was still busy boiling tea for the tea ceremony. Supposed to wake up before 8am to sent my brother off to his new wife's home, but I was still in dreamland....

I woke up at 9am and waited for my relatives to come. Slowly my aunt, uncles and cousins came. The house was full with their noises. Wedding time is one of the best time to catch up with them. Some of them I've not seen for 5 years or so.

Finally, my brother and new sister-in-law came after waiting for 2.5 hours. After welcoming by my parents into the house, they ventured to the new bedroom. My little nephew rolled and jumped in the new bed of the newly wedded.

This is a traditional which practises in the Chinese custom which by jumping on the bed brings more luck of conceiving sons for the wedded couple.

Next come the tea ceremony and giving of angpaus and gold accessories.

After that, we adjourned for lunch.

I barely rested for half an hour and is time to get ready to adjourn to the hotel. In KL, we need to leave an hour early to our destination to avoid traffic jam.

I didn't know that my brother have not register his marriage yet. The marriage registration was to held at the hotel at 6pm. Guess that my brother prepared all this to be done under one roof on the same day to avoid inconveniences.

The marriage registration was done in a simple manner attended by both parents, relatives and friends. After some light wine and cupcakes, all of us adjourned to the banquet hall.

There, my cousins and I started to get busy. We are assigned to be registrars and to collect angpaus. After sending all the guests and relatives in to be seated, food were served.

Food was quite delicious except some dishes were being tasted salty. I was seated with my father's cousins. And this is the first time, I've got to know who they are. Like I said, wedding do bring long lost people together.

My brother gave me a surprised by serenading a love song to his wife. He's never a stage person, but for the love of his wife, he did that. It was so romantic. Too bad I can't post the video here.

After tossing of many yam seng, dinner ended at 10.30 with the last guest leaving. Then, to the counting room. With the help of my cousins, counting of the angpaus was swift and fast. Monies were balanced and the banquet was paid.

Everything was wrapped up and by the time, I reached my brother's place was
1am.

Though it was a really busy and tiring day for me and my family, it was a worthwhile time to celebrate and welcome my new sister-in-law.

Ps. Will try to upload photos of his wedding after he's back from his honeymoon.

She has the very right....

When a human being is born, that person is given a right. The right to live, the right to choose, the right of acceptance, the right for freedom. But not in the case of Mohammed Fadzil or better known as Fatine.

Fatine was found and accepted by her true love, Ian Young, a British. They were married in London, last May.

She can't return to Malaysia nor she can stay in Britian long. Britian rejected her incorrect photo while she was applying two appplications for a Right to Family Life under the Human Right Acts in Britian. She is now applying her third application.

Malaysia will definately rejected as Malaysia will never recognise her rights.

The potrayal of her story in her own community receives negative remarks back in Malaysia.

She concerns that her own race and family are not accepting her being a Muslim are one of the reason.

To read about her more, please go to The Star Online.

Ps. What about those whose stories have never been heard?

Navigator or being Navigated?

When I'm behind the wheels, I'm in control. From Monday to Saturday, I drive to work and on Sunday to church. I have the freedom of driving without being told of directions and the look out of other vehicles around me. Because my only passenger is my sister, after all these years, lol.

Once in a while, I will drive my girlfriend. Sometimes, she will complain that I do not how to drive when I took the wrong direction. She even commented about my bad parking. Hey, I got to be careful not to knock into other's car when I'm parking! Sometimes, I let her drive my car just to shut her mouth up!

There were once I drove my ex-boss to Pizza Hut. Once he got into my car, he started giving me instructions. I knew that he will be babbling all the way and I told him to shut his mouth up! It's me who's driving, not you, I continued. He kept quiet all the way.

The only time I'm not driving is when I'm out on a date with my bf. I will help him to look out for directions and other vehicles, asking him to be careful.

Guess I'm totally a different person behind and off the wheels.

Ps. Do you like to be told or do you tell when you're driving?

When bosses are right...

We work to earn a living and we have to face our bosses every day. Which leaves us no choice even though it despise us to see them.

I was reprimanded by my boss yesterday for not knowing my job well. I think there goes my confirmation. I'm only in this new job for 5 months now.

There was an overlook mistake that I made and was asked to clear that mistake. It involves checking quotations against a creditor invoice. The supplier mistakenly printed out the location wrongly but the quote was right.

There was no mistake to rectify and I explained to my boss, even comparing the last invoice made. He doesn't listen to my explanation and insisted that I have checked wrongly.

My colleague saw the same mistake the supplier made on the invoice and told my boss. Finally, he relented. He called me in and return the file, never even apologise for his mistake of reprimanded me! His egoistic behaviour has gone way up to his big head!

Ps. Why do bosses always think that they are right?

Are there any chance to explain when being reprimanded from bosses?

Would I marry you?

"What happen if I won't marry you"? My bf asked me last Sat. Gosh, it was my b'day and how could he?! I told him that I will cry, for a few days maybe a few weeks.

It's too early at our relationship we talked about marriage. We are only 3 months old. Deep down, I truly want to spent my live with him but yet are afraid to be totally committed to it. There are so many things that we need to discover and plan before we can settle down.

Needless to say, my biological clock is ticking fast and I need to married to have his children! But, I need not rush into marriage because of this.

He told me that he wants to get married when he turns 40. And I told him, well then don't get married at all.

I guessed that he too not ready at this moment. We will be on this topic another 6 months down the road.

Ps. Of after how many years of relationship, that you got married?

36 Tomorrow

Tomorrow on this day 21st Nov, I was born. Born to my proud parents and I'm proud to say that I'm a year older, 36.

What do I want for this year? Diamond ring? Designer handbag? A luxurious holiday? I wish I could have all these. All I'm asking is good health, happiness and love.

Continuing of good health with no major illness, living happily and being in love with my bf and my friends.

It will be a quiet b'day for me, as usual I will be working. Boo-hoo... There won't be any big celebration except going makan with my bf.

There will be many wishes from friends and my family. I would like to thank my good friend, Chan HC. Every year, without fail, she will remember my birthday. I'm such a bad friend of not remember her once.

When I was young, I do remember there was lots of parties and presents. Wish I young forever, lol...

Ps. I would really love a piece of choclate cheese cake tomorrow. Happy b'day!

Credit Card Woes

When the Malaysian government announces in the Budget 2010 that they are going to charge each principal credit card RM50 and supplement card RM25 annually by 1st Jan, everyone cry red. This is to discourage people from owing credit card companies and encourage them to pay up, so as they say-lah. It's affecting all credit card holders regardless whether your payments are non-owing.

Imagine that you have 4 principal cards which means the total will be RM200. It's going to dig a whole in your pocket for sure!

Now, I only have 2 cards and I needed them, one is for my insurance payments and the other is for shopping and dining. I'm truly proud to say that my payments to the credit card companies are non-owing. I'm really afraid of some extra financial charges I have to incur if I don't settle the full payment.

Gone were the days when credit card companies approach and even bank calls to offer free cards with no surcharge.

Which means the banks and government encourages us Malaysian to spent more to cover the cost of the said RM50 and RM25.

More swiping = more spending = more owing. (For those who have huge amount of debts).

It's certainly not fair, like me and for those whom every month faithfully settled the full outstanding be charged.

Ps. I hope that I won't be charged the RM50 each for my 2 cards. If not, maybe I will have to cancel one card.

Do Malaysians out there agreed that the government should absorb these charges?

Crushed Dream

She's my friend and she has this determination spirit of not giving up. She sat for her SPM BM paper twice and finally, she managed to score a credit. I was so happy for her! :)

Her ultimate goal is to be a government teacher. She has other option of not enrolling in a teacher's training college first. She can enrol at a private college to study a diploma course before transferring her credits to a local university. This is all she has planned before...

She will call me weekly and shared her dream with me. Today, I received her call and she's telling me that the college she wanted to enrol for her diploma course does not get approval from MQA. She called MQA and asked to confirm the approval of the said course and it's not confirmed.

The college had earlier confirmed that it was approved by MQA when we went and asked for the info.

(MQA or Malaysia Qualification Agency is a government body which monitor all colleges courses and licenses. All courses needed to be accredited and approved by MQA). Certs will not be recognised if it's not approved by MQA.

And to make life more difficult, the qualifications for entry to teacher's training college has been raised to 6 credits and the BM paper must passed with distinction. To this point, she felt her dreams started to diminish, she started crying.

She has put all her hope and determination by getting a BM credit and now she felt her dreams is slipping through her fingers. She felt devastated.

I couldn't help her much but just to be there and giving all my support.

Misty, just do remember, I will always be here for you.

Ps. Life has make us dreamers;

a)How many have became reality and to hold?

b)Was there any disappointments?

Your diet style?

We been bombarded by media and books the latest diet, what type of diet that suits you. Working people like us, not to mention about me also, are too lazy to ex-cer-cise! When it comes to exercises, there just tons of excuses!

You can know what diet works for you just by your blood group!

And on the other hand, we want to keep our stomach happy, lol. And yet, we want to be body-luscious. We can't have both things, can we?

I don't follow the latest diet and I diet my own style. I try to stay off rice at night and having rice only 4 times a week. After all, rice contain carbo and it can get me F-A-T!

During the night, I substitute with oatmeal biscuits with some cereals, frequently. Sometimes, it will only be breads.

I stayed off pork a few years back. Once in a blue moon, only will I indulge. Did you know that pork is one of the dirtiest animal on earth?

And 3 times a week, I'm on a vegetarian diet during lunch.

For MacDonalds and KFC, I seldom indulge. They are food poisoning even though the taste are so damn delicious!

a)Do you diet and follow the latest?
b)Or do you have your own diet style?

Keeping My Mouth Shut

One thing that I learnt in my relationship with my bf is shut my mouth up. No, we are not arguing or anything like that! Things are smooth as we are open and honest, especially when it comes to finances.

Our date mainly comprises on cheap hawker food and movies, or even sometimes lepaking at home with his dvds to watch. Nothing fancy restaurants yet....

Last nite, before he came and went out for a dinner, he text me and asked me to belanja him. I agreed and I presumed, he's really short of cash!

He came and we went for dinner at a hawker centre. I did not bring up the matter of me paying for the dinner, but he spilled the beans. Yeap, lately he has financial constraints and are waiting for monies which his friends owed him from a business deal.

I really want to thank him for his sincerity and love even though he has to spent on petrol, bridge and toll charges to come over to meet me.

It's best keeping my mouth shut at the right time.

Ps. When was the time you kept your mouth shut over certain issues and letting your partner deal with it momentarily?

I'm too lazy to work today....

The alarm clock rings at 7am or earlier. You look at the clock and slam down the knob to prevent it from screaming again. Let me sleep for another 10 mins...

You dragged your feet from bed to the washroom. After washing up, you head to the kitchen for breakfast. Maybe to some, you are out from your house to prevent the bad traffic.

You slammed down the accelerator, racing against time and traffic, cursing and swearing of some idiotic drivers.

You arrived at the office and your day of work begins. Meeting deadlines, preparing reports and well, most of the times %^*) by the boss!

After working for 8 to 10 hours, you headed back from work tired to home sweet home.

Tomorrow will be another day of work.

Day in day out, it's so routine. Sometimes, do you feel like you just want to get out from all this?

My bf switches off his handphone and sleeps the whole day, citing the reason of being family emergency. He had done it several times whenever he doesn't feel like working. He hasn't been found out yet...

I never done any ponteng from work before, but I take most of my MC whenever I have the opportunity. I really loved it when I just can sleep in bed the whole day.

a) What type of good excuses you have given to your boss?

b) Have you ever been found out?

A good samaritan.... Are You?

As I was approaching to my destination, I saw a forlorn figure gathering herself up from the street. She was limping and I slowed down my vehicle, knowing that something bad had happened. There were onlookers just standing there minding their own business.

As I was nearer, she was shouting in anguish, "Help, help! I've been robbed". Clearly it was a seance of snatch theft incident. Physically, she was not hurt maybe only slight bruises. People just stared at her not doing anything to help her, much to the group of policemen minding their duties outside a bank across the street.

I drove next to her wanting to ask "Are you hurt?", but seeing she was fine, I drove on. I felt bad for not taking her to the police station.

1) Have any been caught in this type of incident before?

2) Would you be a good Samaritan or you just don't be involved in it?

Internet Love

She's 17, sweet and young and he's 18. Both of them are in love and they met over the internet. She stays in Malaysia while he stays in UK. Thousand of miles apart.

They have been chatting over the net, probarbly calling each other and sending emails many months now. And they decided to meet. But wait, they can't as their parents did not know about their relationship.

The girl is willing to leave everything, even her family just to be with her boyfriend. Oh, the wonder of love! The boy decide to buy an air ticket for her to go over to UK.

The girl family came to knew about her disappreance and they are trying to locate her through a help of a Malaysian residing in UK.

This is not a make up story as it has been reported in the local news.

Good news is she was located 3 months thereafter and now both of them are willing to meet her parents.

We have come to an age for internet dating, no doubt. Like it or not, millions of lonely people are looking for someone special out there. There are some genuiene ones looking and they really end up marrying, but yet there are some perverts who cheats in money or sex.

If one of your child, especially your daughter or you meet someone from the net,

a) Will you allow your child/you to condone this relationship?

b) Are you able to trust this new friend?

Ps. I met my bf thro the internet and currently we are in love and dating!

Very Unfriendly Neighbour

I was being called to my apartment's management office at one afternoon 3 months ago apparently a complain from my neighbour down floor. I went to the management office and she told me that there was a bad leak from my toilet to my neighbour's toilet. I'm staying at the top floor.

Luckily, at that time I was temporarily out of job. I then went to my neighbour and investigate the leak. And I told her that I will arrange a contractor or a plumber to mend the leak.

Weeks went by and I haven't call the contractor. Was busy with my new work and time doesn't permit him. The only time I can call the contractor is only during the public holiday as it will be convenient for any repairs to be done.

Sensing of my broken promises, my neighbour wrote me an unfriendly note telling me she's running out of patient. I ignored the note and arrangement was made for the contractor to faciliate the repair during the Raya holiday.

The contractor came and at that moment, he can only put a layer of sealant on my bathroom floor to prevent any further leakage. He told me that there couldn't be any possible leakege as the water pipes were changed and quite new.

I received another 2 notes from her last few days warning me to get the repair done.
I really don't like the sounds of it, and I've replied her in a note. Explaining to her the repaired was done and did not know it was leaking again.

It's not going to be an easy repair as it will involve the management and sharing of cost. If the sewerage pipe is leaking, then the management will have to bear the cost. Knowing the fact the apartment management takes ample of time for cost to approved. I don't know whether she will be wiling to share the cost amount if my bathroom floor will be hacked.

I know that she's upset about the whole leakage thing but I think she's rude and acting unfriendly sending me all these notes.

On top of that, there are neighbours who are friendly and very helpful.

Ps. Staying in a community, have you come across unfriendly neighbours?

Liar, liar, Pants On Fire

I hate to tell white lies when I received certain phone calls or text messages. Especially phone calls from insurance agents and direct selling.

I received a text message from my insurance agent telling me that she's going to drop by my place. I thought; oh no! She's going to come and ask me about my confirmation she needed to know about the product that I was about to purchase. I replied and said I was not in town. I told a lie.

Many times, they will call me up for lunch appointments. And while having lunch and nice chit chat, somehow they will introduce the products and out of obliging as friends, I will end up buying or signing some products which I do not need. Which most of the time, I regreted of doing so.

Well, most of the time, I think they are an annoyance, but sometimes I don't know how to say no just not to hurt them.

Ps. Have you come across these type of peoples? How do you declined them?

Good And Enjoyable Reads

They say "Reading make a man". It sure really make a person hell out of me!

When I was young, I remembered my first Peter and Jane book bought by my parents. Then, it was a series of Enid Blyton. The English was simple for my age and I loved their hard cover and the coloured pages, lol.

I bought my own first book, a Nancy Drew story. It was a super-sleuth detective adventures. I got so hooked up after reading the first one and started to read every one of them. Not only Nancy Drews intrigued me, but also The Famous Five, The Hardy Boys and The Secret Seven. Anyone of you remember reading these books?

The Harlequin books on a romance and mushy series, even Miles and Boons were forbidden enough to keep me guessing on sex. Thought I can get a close up on sex, but the details were vaguely. It really leaves me to my imagination!

Left the romance part and I was introduced to another great author, Sidney Sheldon. He became one of my favourite author and I was intrigued by his books. Took me to places I never been which involves family international power and espionage. Read all his series, except The Master of The Game.

I then start to pick up real life memoirs. Desert Flower by Waris Dirie,
a true life story about female genitalation which still happens in certain countries in Africa today. A Long Way Home by Ishmael Beah, a story about a child solider in war torn Sierra Leone.

The Last Lecture by Randy Paush written months before his death on pancreatic cancer. Randy gave insights on his life before and after his death imparting wisdom and inspiration on living.

These memoirs had thought me to be more matured and be positive in life knowing that I should be thankful always compared to them. Do go and pick up one of these books and let them be an encouragement to your ups and downs in life.

Some lighthearted ones that I loved was books by Cecilia Ahern. Ps I Love You and Rosie Dunne thought me that love is possible in an impossible world.

Ps. Have you read any good books lately that inspires?

He's the sweetest guy...

We met through a travelling website and he started to contact me. He's Jon, a British, staying in Spain and he wanted to come to visit Penang. He asked me to be his guide when he's here and I couldn't oblige.

He came to Penang on July 2008 and I gladly be his guide for 2 to 3 days. Took him to places even I never been.

We enjoyed the times that we had and eventually he has feelings for me. I was apprehensive because he's leaving back to Spain and furthermore, he as old as my dad!

From there, our friendship blossoms. There were many emails we wrote, we shared our life ups and downs. Gosh, he was missing me and after three months, he came back!

He realized that he was too old for me and thus remain as a mutual friend. We became more close through all the emails and I was happy for him when he met his Philippines gf.

He's one of the sweetest guy I've met. He was there for me whenever I was down consoling me thro his emails.

Ps. This picture I've taken with Jon at the hotel lobby he's staying, July 2008.

Can we stop our children from lying?

I reprimanded my Sunday school kids yesterday before I started the day's lesson. As their teacher, I feel responsible of their safety and concern.

Two of the kids, one 6 years and the other 9 years were coming down to the sunday school room without anyone knowledge. The room is located at the ground floor and it's not locked. Any child who is left alone could be the targeted of any kidnappers!

Both of them were lying to me the instance that I asked them.

Both of them denied coming in the room but admitted entering one of the other room. I kept on asking them; the question is that why were you children down here without my knowledge?

The six years old kept denying and defended himself shifting his gaze away from me. His face changed and finally admitted that he came down with the older guy.

I couldn't believe that a six years old lied! Where did he learn that from? His parents are God fearing people that goes to church every meeting and he has a private teacher coming to his house for school lessons.

Which means that he did not mix so much with other kids obviously.

I think the older kid influenced him and taught him to lie.

Ps. Little lies will become big lies...Can we stop our children from lying?

Ancestor Trail

I'm always mistaken many times, especially in the shopping malls. The salesperson will come up to me, speaking to me in Malay. Either I answered in Chinese, or I just walked away.

People do come up to me asking me whether I'm from Philippines or Indonesia, lol, and so in a dating site I've joined.

Only certain people will know I'm of mixed blood.

I thought I'm on a tanned side, resulting of the constant baking under the sun for sports practise way back in high school.

I'm one quarter of Thai blood, my dad told me and my siblings. I carried the genes of my late grandfather more, resulting my tanned skin.

My dad proudly told me that my late great grandma was from Songkla, Thailand. She married two husbands who were Chinese and traded in rubber trees plantation. She was rich, by then. She always donned in baju kebaya, tied her hair up in a bun and eat with her fingers.

Every visits she will bring durians! We loved the traditional kuih made by her. My favourite was the kuih bengkang. She lived long and passed away in a ripe old age of 80.

I'm glad that I known a little about my ancestor bloodline. I'm proud to tell people I'm Thai mixed Chinese!

Ps.Too bad, I can't speak a word of Thai, tough.

Unfriendly Welcome

I went to see her after a month of not contacting each other. I was telling and feeling guilty for not seeing her as her good friend.

I was glad that she had met someone being absent for a month. Someone that can take for her grocery shopping, just being there whenever she needs help.

I took a nap at her house because I was damn sleepy due to the hot weather. She started to criticise me of sleeping and asking me to take her window shopping at Metrojaya.

I was reluctant as I was physically drained out.

She just couldn't stop criticising me indirectly by comparing me with her new found friend. Started to bring up the subject of the Omega 3 that I reluctant to sell her my bottle. This issue was so long ago... She's just adding salt to the wound.

Now, I clearly understand her behaviour towards me. Seems that she doesn't and won't appreciate this old friend of hers.

Ps. Guess that I will be lessening my visit to her.

Honey... I'm late.

"Honey, I'm late. I think I'm pregnant".

This is the statement that every boyfriend is afraid of or is a joy to hear.

This is a typical problem that unmarried couples will have to face if they are not being too careful. Many unmarried couples have premarital sex which considered to be normal nowadays. I do not condone nor I'm against premarital sex, but do always have sex with responsibility.

I'm sure that these couples won't ever will want to have babies if they are not ready, what more if not be married yet? Have a shotgun wedding?

Abort the baby? That's cruel and inhuman!

The baby was not in the picture in the first place but the couples will have to include him in. Plans made gone awry and it has to come with responsibility.

Most couples eventually married because of responsibility and the consequences. But, do they married for love too?

Ps. For those who have or are experiencing this, what will you do?
Do you married for love or responsibility? Or both? Are you regrettable of what had been done?

Friends...You Can Never Live (2)

It's been three weeks since I last saw her, one of my closet friend. We had a misunderstanding (posted in Friends...You can never live (1)) and there were no phone calls made since then, maybe due to our pride and stubbornness. We are just waiting to call each other, aren't we?

I have been her friend for many years now and been with her through thick and thin.

I felt bad for not contacting her. Partly is also because I need to spent Saturdays with my boyfriend.

If I do call her, I;m afraid that she will expects too much of a friend from me.

Ps. Shall I call her or live it as it is?

Random Thoughts

I got ready an hour ago. Waiting for my boyfriend to pick me up for a date, he told me he will be here an hour and yet he did not turn up yet.

I called him and he told he me that he will be here another hour late because he was helping his friend's delivering some Hari Raya stuffs. Sometimes, why he is so kay-poh?

Right now, I'm still waiting....

Got to learn how to be p-a-t-i-e-n-t.

I will be out before midnight and will be back in the wee hours of morning, painting the town red... Lol. The perils of young and being in love.

Ps. I just loved being in this feeling. To all my Malaysian die hard bloggers, enjoy the long weekend ahead, go and paint the town red!

Ten Things God Won't Ask...

I would like to share some quotes which forwarded by a friend of mine; they are true enough.

1. God won't ask how what kind of car you drove, He'll ask how many people you drove who didn't have transportation;

2. God won't ask the footage of your house, He'll ask how many people you welcomed into your house;

3. God won't ask about the clothes you had in your closet, He'll ask how many you helped to clothe;

4. God won't ask what your highest salary was, He'll ask if you compromised your character to obtain;

5. God won't ask what your job title was, He'll ask if you performed your job to the best of your ability;

6. God won't ask how many friends you had, He'll ask how many people to whom you were a friend;

7. God won't ask what neighbourhood you lived, He'll ask how you treated your neighbours;

8. God won't ask the color of your skin, He'll ask about the content of your character;

9. God won't ask why it took so long to seek salvation, His arms are always open waiting for you;

10. God won't have to ask how many people you shared, He already knows your decision.

Ps. I could not agreed more with the above quotes, felt bad as I don't practise most of it.... Being selfish, just being human...

Are you being human in all this?

If Today Was Your Last Day???

If today was your last day and tommorow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had,if today was your last day?
What if, what if, today was your last day?

By Nickelback


If today was my last day, all I asked is forgiveness from God himself and from those who had done me wrong.

I will then gather all my families and friends telling them I Love Them.

I will go to my favourite spot, watching beautiful sunset and leave this place in my arms of my beloved.

What if today was your last day to live? You have only 12 hours more to live!

a)What will you do as the song said?

b)Call up all your friends and ask for forgiveness to those who had done wrong?

c)Write up a will and decided where all your properties and monies goes to?

d)Gather all your love ones and families?

e)Eat your favourite food and watch your favourite movie?

f)Telling all your dreams and goals that you would never be able to achieve?

Friends... You can never live...(1)

Friends; You can never live with or without them. I don't have many close and good friends, but there are 2 friends that I can't live without.

Last week, one of this friend of mine, she pisses me off. I don't know whether she did it deliberately. We had an agreement of splitting up two bottles of Omega 3 which were brought from a pharmacy a month ago.

She then tells me that she wanted to buy from me the remainding bottle of Omega 3 which I haven't open it. I agreed because I'm still on the old bottle, not realising that mine is finishing fast.

I then called her up and told her that I could not sell my bottle to her. She agrees, but the next day she calls up and said that I was a liar. That I promised her to sell the my bottle to her. I told her that I ran out of stock and I couldn't sell it to her. She was angry with me and she ended the conversation.

I have been friends with her for the past 10 years. I've been through her ups and downs, always by her side. Our friendship definitely comes a long way.

I know that my issue with her seems little; but I feels that she's taking advantage of me this time.

There are times when she calls and expects me to be there immediately.

Without fail, 2 weeks once, I will pay her a visit. I will drive her for her grocery shopping and then dinner. (She's single and lived alone).

I think as her friend, I can do as much for her. It's hard sometimes to live to her expectation.

Ps. I'm just venting out my frustrations. I've nothing against her, but do you think she's too much?

I'm In Love Again...

The daily text messages, daily phone calls, hands held, hugs and kisses came rushing by. The feelings of being in love. Feeling of being wanted, care and love by someone. Yeap, I'm in love again.

I've met my new boyfriend 3 weeks in a dating website. And thank God that he's from Penang and not somewhere far, far away. So far, we been out for 3 dates and everytime we went out, it's a great time spent together.

At this point, I've nothing much to say, as we are still new in this relationship.

Ps. I'm glad that I've put my previous relationship away. Looking forward in my new found love.

My Mom's B'day Wish

Today is my mom's birthday. She's celebrating her 62 birthday. I called up her and wished her "Happy Birthday".

During her 62 years, she has brought 4 beautiful children with her love and tender care. And till today, her children has grown successfully doing well in life.

Being the eldest, I was always be picked by my mom when I was younger. I was always get the blamed and beaten up by her whenever there are quarrels between us siblings.

I struggled in my high school; I was not a bright student. I was trying my very best to please her back in those days.

She favoured my 2 brothers as they always bring many AAs in the exams. Which leads to siblings jealously.

I thought it was not fair at all and she didn't love me at all.

Things changed for a better when I left my hometown and worked in Penang. I stayed alone and for the first time, I missed her. Her cooking, washing, advice, her presence and time spent with her.

From the time, we were apart, we began to accept one another as we are.

Her labour was never in vain. My siblings and I grew up just fine not by becoming someone successful in life but also someone useful.

My birthday wish for my mom is that she will have a fulfilled life surrounding with her family's love.

Ps. Thanks mom for your great love and you are still loving us. Happy birthday mom, I love you.

We are typical Malaysians!

As Malaysia will be celebrating her 52Nd Independence Day on the 31st August, here are some quotes that makes us typical Malaysian that can be proud of.

a) National excuse for being late - Traffic jam

b) National aphrodisiac drinks - Stout, many swears by it. But after a few pints they start swearing by anything. Lol...

c) National fake illness of getting MC (Men) - Food poisoning.

d) National fake illness of getting MC (Women) - Menstruating/Period pain.

e) National excuses given by women for refusing sex - Headache, kids not sleep, got meeting tomorrow, tired, going to watch "Desperate Housewives", etc...

f) National excuse given by men for refusing sex - None. Malaysian men never refuse sex? Really?

g) National language - "mah", "lah", "eh", etc...

i) National cure for headaches - Panadol.

j) National rubbish dump - Anywhere, as long it's not in your house.

k) National roadside attraction - The bra-less tourist. See how heads turn and traffic slows down when Mat Salleh goes bouncing down the streets.

Ps. To all my Malaysian bloggers, Happy 52nd Merdeka Day! May Malaysia continue to grow in better health, wealth and economy for all her future generations.

My 100th Blog

Finally, I won the race of being in the 100th blog. I think blogger.com should award every 100th blog.

Been blogging for a year plus now. I was introduced the blogging world by my godbrother Eugene, http://bold-talk.com. Thanks to him, I have came this far.

Initially, I remembered my first few blogs was kind of hard. I needed to think and write topics in a piece of paper before I transferred the details in my blog entry. So much of being an amateur, lol. After a few entries, it became natural and thoughts and topics just flow easily.

Blogging has became a way of life for me. I don't really blog for money, but it has thought me to become mature and wiser handling life's challengers. Much though. I have a few kaki bloggers which I would like to thank for.

Full Time Mom, Linda, Womanspeak,Genna,Cas and Eugene, thanks for visiting me and following my life stories leaving comments and good advice. You guys are my online guardian angels even though we have not met.

Made to Worship and Abraham, your blogs inspires me whenever I'm down and looking for Godly advice.

I will go on blogging bringing my life happiness, sadness and griefs to live.

Ps. A great thanks and appreciation to my blogger friends for being there in and out.

This virus knows no man

When I woke up this morning, I had the flu again and cough, being me having the allergy most the time. I was reluctant to go to see the doctor and to take an mc.

Because I'm still a newbie in my company and I wouldn't want to be labelled as someone who's always on mc.

I might have the symptoms of A(HINI) and I could have contacted the virus from my friend in Singapore who visited me yesterday. After much self persuasion, I went to see the doctor.

Before my turn was called, there were two patients were down with cough. After coming out from the doctor's room, they were asked to go to the General Hospital's emergency ward for further screens. Which means that they are suspected of the A(HINI) virus!

The doctor took my temperature and I was fever free! Whew, thank God for that! I was afraid that I will be a suspected case.

I've finally let go....

I opened my email after work hoping my boyfriend (now my ex), will reply. I gave him the benefit of the doubt that he will reply telling me the reasons why he shut me out completely yesterday, but alas he did not.

By his unacceptable behaviour yesterday, I think he's asking for a breakup. He's such a coward to ask for a breakup.

Since he gave the silent treatment, I returned him my silent treatment too. Wrote him an email telling him I'm calling it quits.

I have thoughts of leaving this relationship many times. (As posted in Relationship Blue). Well, it did finally came through.

I've felt relief but the missing him is still in my heart. I've got to be strong to put this behind in due time.

Ps. Is there any relationship that is too hard to let go in your life?

What have I done to deserve this?

I was completely shut out today when I called my boyfriend over the web cam. Thinking he couldn't hear me and see me, (he was watching TV that time), I called him a few times.

I then called him on his mobile, he didn't answer my call. Called him again, did not pick up my call and on the third try, he switches off his phone!

Knowing that I was still around, he deliberately moves his web cam away from his view, so that I couldn't see him!

After trying and waiting for him for ten minutes, I gave up and locked off skype.

He completely shut me out and I was fuming mad! I don't know what's wrong with him.

I then wrote him an email demanding an explanation of his doing. I really need to know his reasons for all this.

Until now, back in my mind thinking what have I done to deserve this?

I'm contemplating now whether this long distance relationship is worthwhile.

Ps. Can anyone tells me why is he behaving like this? Is he asking for a breakup?

I'm lazy today...

I'm lazy today to post a specific blog entry, as weekend is approaching in just a few hours. My mind is telling me to rest today.

I'm sure that some of you are eager to look forward toward the weekend. Yeah, 2 full days without work. But to some, like me, tomorrow :( is a working day. Wish that I could wake up like 10am....

My weekend will be spending lots of time in bed, sleepinglah and watching soap drama which I never missed; Grey's Anatomy. Also once a week for sweeping and moping my apartment. I will definitely squeeze in Sat evening for swimming.

On Sunday, I still can't sleep late as I have to go to church service. By the time, I be back home, it is about 2pm, after I had my lunch. Yeah, yeah Christian services are a bit long.

Talked to my boyfriend on web cam for at least 2 hours. After that, more sleep. Night will be approaching and soon enough it's Monday to work.


Have a happy weekend everyone!

Ps. How do you spend your weekend? Is it a fulfilling one? Or just like me lazing around?

Thoughts On My Family

I've got a missed call from my dad during lunch today. I did not take my handphone out. I felt jittery after receiving his call. I returned his call.

You know, the kind of feeling you would have, thinking that you get bad news about your family, especially in the odd hours and at night?

Whew, thank God, my dad accidentally pressed my number.

Absent makes the heart grows fonder as they say.

Most days, my thoughts will be on them and even my two brothers. That everything will be well of them.

The bond between us are not the same anymore as each of us have our own lives to live. Gone are the days, when we all stayed together. Perhaps, the bond will be stronger now?

I haven't talked to my brothers since the last gathering at my parent's house for the chinese new year. As the elder sister, I should take an initiative to call and talk to them. But, I have this feeling, maybe they don't want to be disturbed?

Ps. As you grew up, does your bond with your family grew apart or became more close knit? Am I a bad sister?

When did you discover sex?

I remembered I sat in my high school science lab listening to my teacher explaining about a penis meeting an egg. The penis will shoot thousand of sperms inside the vagina to meet the ovary. After the sexual meeting, the result is a baby waiting to be delivered in nine month's time.

I was gawking and trying to imagine what my teacher had said. I was really lost and there was my sex education, theoretically. There was no explanation about safe sex and using of condoms. (Maybe, during 13 years ago, there were not many unwanted pregnancies).

Being a taboo subject and an embarrassment to ask my parents, I discovered sex by reading Miles and Boons stories. The stories were told subtly which leaves the reader to it's imagination. Those who read Miles and Boons, I'm sure you know, right?

I continued to discover more by reading magazines about the implication and having safe sex. Also sexually transmitted diseases and unwanted pregnancies.

Kids, nowadays are different from kids 10 years ago. Studies found that kids as young as nine years, especially girls are sexually active. Damn their ragging hormone! Some of them even lost their virginity. Shocking isn't it?

Easy accessibility of pornographic and bad company they mixed with could end up for these kids to have sex not in a rightful manner.

I do not how the sex education is being taught in school today. It is definately not enough! Parents still need to teach their own children what the teachers have missed out.

Ps. Parents, please take a keen interest to teach your own children the proper sex education. Please do not let your children end up like me discovering sex from various sources.

Relationship Blues

I'm having a relationship blue, and don't know what to do. Been having a long distance relationship for a year plus now and it's really hard.

The distance it's really killing me. Feel like giving up sometimes but yet need to preserver on, after all it's been a year plus now. I couldn't expect him to come and see me whenever I needed him because of his job commitment and the distance and neither could I.

Even though, we have been communicating through web cam, it's a big difference talking and seeing each other face to face. But then again I can't be so selfish, can't I?

When in a relationship, I can't think only on my needs but I need to understand and fufill his needs too. Love is not selfish, right?

It will be a long journey for us in this relationship. There are so many things that we need to build our lives together on.

Right now, I've got to accept and learn how to handle this relationship well thinking above my needs.

Do learn how to love and appreciate the people near you, that's what I've learned.

PS. Been feeling down since yesterday and a big thanks for listening to my thoughts. Please leave some good advice and comments just to cheer me up!

Looking Back

Today is the 31st July and 4 more months left of the year 2009. It will be another new year approaching soon. Time do passes so fast.

This year is not a good year for me. It was full of challenges as I looked back for the past 7 months.

First and foremost, I've quited my job during the economy downturn without any new job in mind. Not too sure whether I was a stupid fool that time, my friends supported me but my family was against my decision.

I was so desperate that any job that comes my way, I will take up, even as a babysitter or a kindergarten teacher. Needed as much cash to survive. Which brings me depressed mentally, physically and financially.

Started to pick up little quarrel with my sister, she was the punching bag. Kept on seeking God and praying hard everyday. Praise and thank the Lord, it only lasted two months. Found a job which I've stayed on for 2 months and now a much better one.

I've improved my relationship with God as I learnt to trust Him more.

However, my relationship with my boyfriend improved to a new level. Talked about marriage but no final decision been made yet.

What have you improve or able to achieve your this year resolution so far? Was it a good year?

a) In your career?
b) In your relationship with your love one and your family?
c) In your finances?
d) In your health?
e) In your spiritual life?
f) In your community?

I don't make resolution as I would have broken then before I achieved them. LOL...

Another 4 months to the new year of 2010, and whatever challenges whether good or bad, I will face with God's grace.

Ps. To those who are facing not a good year, always remember, your situation is much better compare to those who are far worst. Just look forward to another blessed year ahead!

Of Candy Floss & Ice Cream Potong

Gone were the days where you can easily get candy floss and ice cream potong, or cut ice cream precisely.

I remembered back in my school days, when after school at a certain time and day, there came a man with his motorbike thing, thing, ringing his bell rounding up my home neighbourhood. At an instant, I knew it was him. I ran out of the door, taking only a few cents.

I looked down inside his magic big container which have mostly 3 colors, yellow, pink and brown. One can surely guessed that it contained of vanilla or durian, strawberry and chocolate flavours. You can picked the ice cream either to be placed in a cone or in a bun. Whenever, I take the first bite, it really makes me just happy.

You can opt for an ice-cream potong if you would like to change your taste bud.
The ice cream potong comes with durian, red bean and chocolate flavour. Mine favourite was the durian and it costs only 10 cents!

Another one who always make his visit was the candy floss man. He will whirl and twirl the sugar in a candy floss machine till it became fluffy. Reminiscing really brings back happy memory.

Ps. I really missed these childhood snacks.

In A Trapped Relationship?

I met one of my friend last week and we have a cuppa just to catch up with old times. And I was asking her about some of our friends whom I lost contact with. Apparently, we did not stay in contact.

She was telling me about one of our friend, *Stella. It seems that Stella is in a very complicated relationship. Stella divorced her husband 6 years ago (this I knew), leaving the husband took custody of her daughter.

She is involved with a divorcee who has a teenage son. Her boyfriend's teenage son can't and won't accept Stella. Marriage won't happen eventually as her boyfriend is apprehensive, commitment phobia and torn between his two love ones.
Even her own daughter is not accepting her boyfriend.

I asked my friend, why did Stella is still in this relationship? Knowing that this relationship will have no future?

My friend has advised Stella but Stella is adamant of not leaving this relationship.

Will you walk away from this relationship if you are Stella?

Ps. Something to chew on for this weekend....
*Name has been changed to protect the identity of this person.

Disturbing Dreams

The scene in my mind is still so fresh even right now I'm writing this entry. I dreamt about the death of my dad.

Got a phone call from my hometown telling me that my dad just passed away. I was shocked and I rush home. The dream was so real; it really scares me out.

Not only I dreamt about the death of my dad but also the death of my grandmother many times. My grandma is still alive and strong even though she's in her 90s. Thank the Lord for His mercy and grace upon her life!

I just don't know why I get this recurring dreams. Is it because that I'm the eldest daughter and granddaughter?

It's a taboo to tell the persons about this type of dreams according to Chinese beliefs.

I hate to be in this type of dreams but I can't control it.

Ps. Sometimes, we got to accept that death of our love ones will be near someday.

Reached My 20

"Ladies and gentlemen, give a round of applause to Sexy Jessie. She has reached her swimming strokes of 20 laps. She was determined to finish the 20 laps after all these months".


Yeap, I've finally did it! Finishing the 20 laps of swimming yesterday. After all, I've been swimming regularly for a year now. At first, it was hard even to get to 10 laps. I always end up of muscles ached and lacked of stamina.


So, I reminded myself that each time I swim I've got to increase at least 2 to 3 laps. Putting my determination and will power, I managed to increase each time 2 laps. From 10 to 12, 12 to 16 to 18 and finally to 20 laps of swimming! 12 breast strokes and 8 free-styles.


I'm proud of myself of what have I achieved. I want to reach the maximum of 30 laps of swim and I will reach there!


Ps. There's nothing impossible in life. Putting lots of determination and will power will certainly help to get and achieve in whatever success in life.
Keep trying and don't give up!

We Are The World Tag

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*You do not have to be tagged to play along. The game is simple and so are the rules.1. Copy from *Start Copy Here* through *End Copy Here*2. Add your site(s) to the list. Just be sure to post at each site you add.3. Tag as many bloggers as you like so the list keeps on growing.4. Let me know your blog’s name and url by leaving me a comment HERE. I will add you to the master list.5. Come back and copy the master list back to your site, often. This process will allow late-comers to get as much link benefit as the first ones in.

We Are The World Bloggers Master List:
1. Emila Yusof 2. The Other Side of Emila 3. Mariuca 4. Mariuca’s Perfume Gallery 5. Meow Diaries 11. Unlisted One 7. Spiff, the Spaceman 8. My Sweet Escape 9. Nota Nurul 10. Life’s Tapestry 11. Spontaneous Insignificancy 12. LadyJava 13. Miss Igorota 14. AnnyBoo 15. Yoon See 16. Jia’s Life 17. Nessa’s Mumblings 18. Also Mommy 19. The Walk of Life 20.Pretty Firefly 21. Untouchable EARTH 22. Baterya 23. Comedy Plus 24. Bain Cardin 25. Strawberry Milkshake 26. Turn-U-Off 27. Jom Heboh Di Sini 28. Notes by Marvic 29. Memoir Mez 30.Origena 31.Walking Newspaper 32. Nurul Aqilah 33. Bluedreamer 34. Breaking the Boundaries 35. Life According to Me 36. A Great Pleasure 37. Time Goes By 38. Kancing itu Butang 39. In my Kitchen 41. Fyzal’s Territory 40. Wiggy’s World 40. A Simple Life 41. A Taxi Ride 42. Single Life of Me 43. Little Bits of Info 44. Ode to Adrienne 45. KMP 46. Simple Happy Life 47. Chuchie's Hideaway 48.Seiko's Diary49.Her and History 50.PLACES, PEOPLE, EVENTS, GOOD FOOD AND MY LIFE!50. My Careless Whispers 51. Gab's Mom Of Full Time Mom,
52.Sexy Jessie
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I would like to pass this tag to the following bloggers:

Bold-Talk
A Journey For Life
A Woman Speaks

Thanks again Gab's Mom for this Tag!

Do you believe in ghosts/spirits?

There are some enthusiasts that hunt ghosts down in places which were reported haunted. Which made into live TV programs where the viewers are being taken and shown of what the ghost hunters do. It's up to the viewers discrepancy to believe whether it's a hoax or not.

Like they said, "Seeing is believing".

Now, I am not a person who really believe in ghosts or spirits; as they are sometimes called, unless I see them. Even in my Christian faith, I was taught that they are spirits out there. So far, I haven't seen any of these spirits, but I have experienced it. Let's call them it, they are not person.

It was in one of my church camp. I was sleeping with one of my sisters. As usual, before we retired, we prayed and asked God to protect us and cleanse the room with His blood. We slept peacefully through the night, and during the wee hours in the morning, I heard a loud tapping on the window. I woke up, thought it eas a tree branch knocking against the window. I looked towards the tree branch, still trying to locate the sound, and there was no tree branch knocking. Eventually, the tapping stopped. Was it my imagination or was it the spirit?!

The second incident was also in my church camp. I felt sick and so was my sister. Both of us took panadols after one of the service and we went back to our room. We slept. About 4 in the afternoon, we heard furniture's moving. The furniture's kept moving for about 20 minutes! We were very sure that our friends did not return to our dorm as they were having games outside. We were either too dazed or too afraid to investigate! I went down to investigate after the noises stopped and I sweared that the furniture's were not moved by any one of us at all! The next day, one of the pastor, told us the night before he had experienced a presence in his room.

I was sleeping and I was woken up by a presence in my room. There was something pressing me behind my back making me impossible to turn back to my side. Fear crept in and instantly I knew this is an evil spirit! I was helpless and all I can do is to pray. I called the name of Jesus and binding the evil spirit and command it to leave in Jesus name! Eventually, it left after few minutes of battle.

And these signs will accompany those who believe:In my name they will drive out demons, they will speak in new tongues.
Mark 16:17

What does happiness mean?

Dear Sam

Not long ago, I was asked to give a speech to graduating honor students at Lincoln University. The administrators who invited me wanted me to talk about adult responsibilities and the pathways to success.

I began my speech by saying that success and adult responsibilities can be harmful to your health. As I spoke, I was thinking of a conversation I'd had some weeks earlier with a hundred-achieving, college-bound seniors in a very upscale suburban high school. I had asked those students why they worked so hard. Almost unanimously, they agreed that their hard was to help them get into the best possible colleges.

I asked, "Why?"
They replied, "So we can be happy".
"Let's talk about that", I said. "What does it mean to be happy?"

One kid declared, "If I have a million dollars in the bank, I'll be happy". Another announced, "If I'm number one in my chosen profession, I'll be happy".

All agreed that money, success, and achievement would make them happy. Not one of these seventeen and eighteen year old kids talked about love, children, relationships, marriage, community, or friends. Which made me wonder:When your resume is perfect, how does your soul feel?

As humans we grasp at things that make us feel secure. We go from our mother's breasts to pacifiers, from small toys to big toys, from cars to houses and vacation homes. Needing security, we grasp at sex, wealth, food, power, drugs.

What are we really hungry for? Security and happiness, yes. But the kind of security we yearn for a feeling of security that cannot be attained by acquisition. If we can buy big houses and powerful cars, we may be able to achieve the illusion of security, but it is still an illusion. If we can do well at school or work, we may get a sense of accomplishment, but there will always be something more to accomplish-happiness will always be around the next corner.

Real security only comes when we are comfortable with who we are (and the feeling is enhanced when we are in a relationship where there is mutual lobe and understanding). Real happiness is a byproduct of a life well lived.

Then I turned to the students and said, "Find someone you love, and feel that love in every pore of your body. And then the next day, love one additional person; and every day after that, increase the number of people you love."

I told them the longer the list of people they love fully, the happier they will be. That, I said is true success. That is an essential adult responsibility.

Sam, I hope you will remember what your soul needs. Not wealth, prestige, and possessions, but the adult responsibility to love someone every day a little more than you did the day before.

Love
Pop

Ps. This is an adapted article written from a grandfather to his grandson Sam, who was diagnosed with a severe form of autism. This letter he wrote to his grandson teaching him about true happiness which I couldn't agree more with.

School Girl Crush

Thought that I grew out of this thing, but oh boy, did it happened to me this morning. I was coming out from my company's kitchen when he smiled at me and said hello and likewise I returned him. OMG! I fell instantly for him.

From the instant split second, I was captured by his beauty and awe. He was one of the auditor auditing my company's accounts. He's in his 30s, I think, Caucasian, tall and slender, and just good looking. I just drool....

I did managed to see him again when I went up to deliver a hot water bottle for his coffee. And when he came down, our eyes just met for a brief moment. Drool again...

Our eyes met for final time when he said goodbye. Drool drool again....

Even though, he stayed for a while, I do hope that he will come again as my boss was telling me that next Thursday, there will be another auditing. Oh boy, do hope that he will come.

Please, please, I need napkins as I will be drooling by then, lol.

Never thought that I will have a school girl crush, the last was in high school!

Ps. Is there anyone still having crushes?

My Breasts Are For Real

When God created woman, He gave them a pair of breast of varies sizes and color. Which make us women one of the most attractive species in this world despite the curvaceous body we have.

There are millions of women going for a breast enlargement surgery to make them look attractive. Not only men are going ga ga over this, but there are some women are envy looking at large firm beautiful breasts.

Nowadays, there are also natural breast enhancement program if they are opt for a safer alternative.

Besides these programs and surgeries, wondrabras and maximiser are created for better breasts fit and lift ups. Simple exercises too can firm up breasts.

My breasts are of average size, but sometimes I wish I could be a bit of a larger size, if given a free chance.

Ps. As for now, I'm relying on maximiser and exercise to have firm breasts. I'm certainly proud of my real breasts!

A(H1N1) virus?

It all started with bad running nose yesterday night. Took an antihistamine and went to sleep, woke up with still running nose, body ache and mild fever. Decided not to take a day's off from work as I won't be able to perform at work.

Went to see the doctor and he asked me whether did I went for holiday abroad and any contact from all these holidaymakers. Of course, I did not visited any country abroad or nor I have any contact with them. My flu symptom is similar to the A(H1N1) virus. Well, he couldn't be too careful, wouldn't he?

As I was waiting for my turn, I notice there are some precaution method every clinic should taken into consideration. There was no anti-bacterial spray around and patients that came in should be given masks to wear.

We will not know whether we are being infected until we are tested positive, hence each one of us are susceptible.

Reports of local transmission are on the rise as they are being exposed and infected from the people they contact coming back from overseas. It has became a chain reaction infectious disease!

Try not to travel abroad to affected countries, if possible. Please see a doctor immediately of you shows any symptom of flu.

Ps. I must rest now to let my body heal and to boost up my immune system.

King of Pop Dies

I was watching the local breakfast this morning and the announcement came that the legend king of pop, Michael Jackson dies of a cardiac arrest at the age of 50. I was utterly shocked.

I remembered in the 80s, I grew crazy each time when the music video "Beat It" was played in the TV or in the radio. Then his other singles came "Billie Jean", "Dirty Diana", "The Way You Make Me Feel", and "Thriller Night".

Then came the 90s singles, "Dangerous", "Scream", "You are Not Alone", "Heal The World" and "Black and White" to name a few.

His songs reflect his struggle for self searching inner self, how the world sees him as being different and his self seeking for love and acceptance and his passion for a better world. Just listen to the lyrics..

Not only his lyrics are deeply meaningful but yet his dance moves are aesthetics. With the crotch-grabbing and the moonwalk... He was the one who created the Moonwalk!

Even though, he was charged for child molestation which he was acquitted later and 2 briefs marriages for publicity's cover up, he could be labeled as a bad boy.

But in my heart, he will be remembered as a pop legend icon.

Ps. Michael, You Are The World!

Blog Makes Us Smile Award

I would like to thanked Full Time Mom who gave me this award. I did not know that my blog entries make people smile, like her.

Blogging is a diary that I express myself thriugh thoughts, feelings, experiences and situations. It helps me to express myself more openly and deeply.

Through reading my blog entries and others, I became more smart, wiser and analytical. I too became more caring by sharing through my and other's life experiences.

Ps. Full Time Mom, thanks for this award. :)

In The Heat Of The Nite

Yestarday night, I was tossing and turning around, maybe it's because I miss my boyfriend and I was hoping he was by my side, lol. I kept looking at the clock, it's 1am and another hour pass by, it's 2am! And I'm still wide awake.

Suddenly, the fan stopped and oh no!, the power in my apartment was out. I looked out and saw my whole area was black out. How long the power is going to be out, I wonder? After the few minutes, I really felt the heat, despite in the wee hours in the morning.

Decided that I couldn't sleep in my bed, I opened up the balcony sliding door and slept on the couch. There was some slight breeze blowing, thank Gpd! I thought that I could sleep on the couch until the morning, but the heat overtaken the breeze.

After laying for half an hour, the power came back, hurray! I went back to sleep in my bedroom with the full blast of the fan accompany me until the morning.

Nowadays, the heat is so unberable, even just sitting down in my apartment in the afternoon I will eventually end up with my whole body drenched with sweat!

Faced it, now in Malaysia, we are experiencing El Nino from now till Sept.

Ps. Rain, rain, pls come quickly. It's like a dessert out here!

Just priceless...

I was on web cam talking to my boyfriend who stays in US last Sunday night. We were talking for the last 3 hours! I was talking until 3am Monday morning and it was the Sunday afternoon for him. Malaysia and US are 13 hours different in time!

Usually, we kept on a hour of conversation, but I was not working at this moment. I left my 2.5 months previous job and will be starting on a new job on the 22nd. So, I really take this opportunity to have this conversation with him as much as I can.

We were talking about our jobs, our love, money, future and even past relationships.

The next day, I called him on web cam after lunch and I was watching American TV drama series with him. I was watching Entourage, True Blood and one more drama which I've forgotten the title. Even though, on my side the images I've received were quite blur, he explained every happening in the movies to me.

Though, we are thousand of miles apart, I felt like I'm sitting next to him watching TV together.

Ps. It was worth wile spending time together with him. The moment shared was just priceless! Thanks to Skype where we can have many free conversations.

Love Matters

I was watching a dvd titled "Love Matters", a Singaporean film produced by Jack Neo with strings of actors from Malaysia.

Part of this story, it's about a normal family man married for 20 years with an 18 year old son. Bo Seng loves the wife, Jia Li, but each time he wants to have sex, the wife just turn him away. He lamented that the last time he had sex was the last 3years! He was so patient with his wife, even though his wife refused to make love to him. Come to think of it, he could have an outside affair to fulfill his full, but he did not.

Come Valentine's Day and he bought a black G-string for his wife and she refuses to wear. His motive is to have sex with his wife during this special occasion. His wife then went for a shower and he barges in and tried to have sex in the bathroom. Wow, talking about keeping his craving for the last 3 years! She barges out and he tries to have sex but she refuses him again. Ending, Bo Seng celebrate his own Valentine.

Jia Li was with her usual gossip group of housewives and of course their topic was man indeed. They were discussing that the husband blamed them when they refuse sex to their husbands. According to one belief, men have 5000 times of sex throughout their lifetime!

Thinking of what her friends had mentioned, the wife was afraid that her time of sex with her husband was up. She thought her husband has utilised the 5000 times, lol. I was laughing hard....

She succeeded seducing her husband and they had sex a few times, not knowingly her husband was having erectile dysfunction. Their sex session were a disaster!

They got into an argument and in the revenge they decided to look for paid sex session to prove their so called sexual abilities. Of course, paid session nearly took place which ended up did not.

At one point, Jia Li was asking her husband, "U men are all the same. When you ask for sex, you only think for yourself. Can you just love me without the sex?"

This above usually happen to married couples, sad to say. Because of their extra responsibilities of house chores, daily work and even children, sex between married couples tend to slow down. Sex is a physical act and plays an important part in each and every married couples, it must be mutual, understanding and love. Sex and love always goes hand in hand.

Ps. What would happen if one of partner decided to give up sex? Can we still continue to love the person without the sex itself?!

8 Reasons to Hit The Pool

I have tried many sports namely hiking, jogging and badminton to keep in shape but ideally my sport is still swimming. Swimming increases my stamina wherelse the other sports it just tires me out easily. I've been a regular swimmer at least once a week, (hey, forgive my busy schedule).

An article by Cleo magazine caught my attention about swimming and I would like to share.

8 Reasons To Hit The Pool

1)Power Cardio
Swimming at least three times weekly for a minimum of 30 minutes increases
endurance and strength, oxygenates blood and generally booths cardiovascular
health! As you become fitter and are able to swim for longer, your resting heart
and respiratory rate will be reduced, making blood flow to heart and lungs more
efficient.

2)Great For The Injured Or Accident Prone
If you're an accident-prone klutz or nursing an injury, swimming is a low-risk
sport ideal for you. You can rigorously work out with a reduced chance of
knocking, kicking, tripping, jumping, falling-type injuries.

3)Pressure Perfect
Studies have shown that a workout routine includes swimming can help reduce and
possibly prevent high blood pressure, which lowers your risk for her art disease
and stroke. Swimming for 30 minutes reduces adrenaline circulating in the body
and relaxes blood vessel. In turn, your pulse rate is lowered and so is your
blood pressure.

4)Tighten and Tone
Swimming tones your upper and lower body because you're making use of almost all
of your major muscle groups. Plus the resistance in the water is greater than
resistance in the air, which means that the muscles have to work harder. For
overall body conditioning and taming, employ these strokes to your swim
strategy: freestyle, breastroke and backstroke.

5)Leaner And Fitter
On a average, a swimmer can burn almost the same calories in an hour as a runner
who runs six miles. On hour of continuous swimming, burns approximately 1,000 to
1,500 kilocalories. With these values, swimming is proven to be on the best
exercises to fight obesity as it melts fats away due to the number of body parts
you have to use.

6)It's Safe Enough For Everyone!
Swimming is low in impact due to buoyancy (you weigh 1/10th less in the water),
making the sport a universal form of cardio that's kind to your joints, bones or
connective tissue. Compared to running or jogging, there's no ground impact when
you swim, and so your joints are protected from stress and strain from pounding
the pavement.

7)Less Stress
Swimming relaxes you because it allows more oxygen to flow to your muscle and
forces you to regulate your breathing. It's a great way to relieve stress. Our
bodies are made up of about 60 percent water so it;s no wonder why some feel such
a draw to the water.

8)Peak Performance
Besides a toned tush, swimmers pick up skills such as sportsmanship, time-
management, self-disciplines, goal-setting and enjoyed improved coordination, an
increased sense of self-esteem and a positive mental state. Swimmers seem to do
better at work and school compared to non-swimmers thanks to their increased
energy level.

Ps. So, what are you waiting for? Go, grab your suits and trunks and head for the
nearest pool!

That's What Friends Are For

I was having a really bad day yesterday after receiving a message which this message could get me into big, big trouble. I was wronged for not informing the other party of what I've done.

Fear crept in and I was calling my friends to help me. I called two of them, Eugene and Ivy for their advice. Eugene helped me by replying the message amicably. I called Ivy and sought for her advice, she told me to calm down, She even prayed for me.

After receiving a reply, things were sorted out. Praise the Lord!

During any ordeal that I faced in life, these 2 friends are always on my side. I've known them for 13 years now.

Ps. Eugene and Ivy, a big thanks for your help every time I'm in an ordeal. Both of you are really my best friends.

Don't ever work with a china man based company....

Yawn, I'm suppose to be sleeping now, it's 12.45am and I'm blogging this entry. It gets me excited to blog this entry before I called off a day. Anyhow, I will be sleeping late for the next 3 weeks.

I tendered my resignation letter today after working for a china man based company for 2.5 months. Of course, I'm being offered a better job. The reason I'm writing this blog is to let the employees out there, especially the fresh ones not to be fooled by verbally confirmation promises.

During the interview verbally I was offered a gross salary of RMXXXX and promises of medical claims after confirmation. I was offered this job on the spot, maybe it's because I knew my ex-employer personally.

But,once reading the appointment letter, there are different facts of contradicting of what my ex-employer had promised. My gross salary minus RM200 and this RM200 was given as an allowance. No medical claims are allowed, meaning I have to fork out my own pocket money for medical claims. OT are only claimable after 6pm, which that means free hours are given to this company from 5.30pm to 6pm.
What type of %*&@&%^ company is this?! No staff benefit.

Every employee wants basic staff benefits required from the company. If a company cannot deliver basic and simple staff benefits and never intend to make an employee happy, no matter how established the company is, employees will leave.

Ps. 1) Please read carefully the appointment letter;
2) Never ever work with a china man company, they sucks!
3) Never ever work with a personal friend, bosses and friends don't
mix.

Sex Isn't Everything...

The topic of sex came out when my boyfriend and I was talking the other day. I think this topic is interesting when you are dating. He was telling me that mostly women, will leave the husband because of the unsatisfactory sexual satisfaction from their husband. And I responded, I thought the men are the ones who leave?!

Sex is a necessity crave for men and women. When it comes to sex, men usually have sex without emotions. They just long to be satisfy their craving and it's just the part of doing it. I hope I'm right, about this? That's why they can have a non string attached relationship and conquered many women.

Women are emotion creatures and they tend to couple relationship with sex. They want love, communication and faithfullness with it. Aren't we woman greedy? Lol...

I've learnt to understand and finally agreed with my boyfriend when he said that sex isn't everything. It involves communication, love, giving and faithfullness.

Ps. I will definitely satisfy him from now until I won't be able anymore. Hope by then, his sexual appetite won't be as huge as now, lol.

Marriage and Infidelity

What had happened to marriages nowadays? News of infidelity and divorce are high on the rise. 6 out of 10 marriages have failed, even my own family have two divorce cases.

What happened to the promises and wows they made before marriage? Through sickness and in health, richer and poorer and till death do us part?

Do we tend to be put on a mask on ourselves for our partners while courting? I think that most of us does this. And do we turn to monsters after married?

Breakup of marriage tends to involve lots of issues. It could be infidelity, lack of communication and understanding, trust, nonacceptance, financial, family crisis and other issues related. Or maybe the love for each other just stop. Is it possible?
The worst of a divorce is when children are involved and they suffered the most.

Not all marriages will break up. Kudos to my parents and my godbrother whom their marriages are still loving and strong till today.

I still have qualms of being married. I want to marry my boyfriend someday, but news of divorce cases really scares me. Putting marriage on whole for a while but I'm planning to get married in 2 years time.

Hope by then, I'm ready to face this new life with a greater challenge with my new husband.

Ps. My sister's colleague, her marriage problem which I've posted under Men-Silent Treatment blog could not be saved. She found out that her husband is having an affair.

Technology Wanders

Finally, after 3 months of waiting, I managed to see my boyfriend. We were apart for the last 3 months since I last saw him. All the while, we just communicate over the phone, my boyfriend is currently working and residing in the States.

But through the wanders of technology, we managed to see each other yesterday night.

After weeks of pestering from him asking me to get a web cam, I managed to get one last week. I've got a logitech web cam which is affordable and downloaded skype 4. It took a good half an hour to connect thro web cam video call, but we didn't give up. After being connected, we chatted for another 40 mins, using our mobile phones over the web cam, lol. His headset is not compatible, he better get another head soon for this weekend, or else...

Now, I really look forward to Sunday nights, just spending an hour with him.

Ps. Kudos to those who engineered this technology, bringing people closer from thousands of miles apart.

Ps. I will try to snap a shot of my boyfriend next time and post.