Relationship-Can u or can't u live w/o it?

Relationship - Can u or can't u live without it? Right now, I'm so called caught in a love triangle. I have not met my boyfriend yet, actually we met online. And now, someone is after my heart of which I don't know whether I should return. This guy is much much older than me.

I thought that it wouldn't happen to me, this love triangle. This second guy is very persistent no matter how hard I decline him. I could have liked this guy, but I've just have this stigma back in my mind, he's much older and there won't be any future. I'm saving my Asian face and not to let down my parents about this issue, you know how Asian thinks?!

Actually, he has been away for the last week, and I was like missing him for a few days. But eventually my feelings faded as time passes.

As for my boyfriend, things have been a little bit slow between us. Can't blame the situation, we are living thousand of miles apart, and both of us are working people. The only time we can talk is on Sundays. Yeah, we do miss each other, just wish that we are 24/7 there for each other but we are keeping vigil till the day we meet.

Sometimes, I feel that I want to be alone; not to be involved in relationship. But I fear of being alone.

It's strange and funny how one perceived relationship. Clearly, people are more demanding and take advantages of each other when they are near, but when you are far away, at least there will be more appreciative.

One thing I can say is right now, I'm going to be faithful to my boyfriend, (am I a fool, hope not, maybe a fool in love!) because I believed it pays.

P/s My boyfriend is coming over in Feb 09. I just can't wait to meet him.